As I mentioned in my last post I have been taking some college courses and one I took was Creative Writing. Since I have been wanting to share my writing with others I thought I would most definitely like to share some of the things I wrote recently on here.
A few years ago right after I found out that I was pregnant with my last son, I discovered that my best friend from third grade had suddenly passed away. It was a tough time and knowing she was gone was hard to handle.
For the last six years as October came closer, I would be very sad and sullen, since my friend’s birthday was coming up. Since she has passed away both of her grandparents who helped to raise her have also passed. She left behind her Mother, two sons, and a daughter.
In my creative writing class, we did some prompts and created short stories, and when I sat down to work on one of the prompts I felt that I would try and focus on things that had happened in our friendship, yet eventually, I moved away from making it about my friend. After a few short stories, we moved on to writing some poems. These poems I wrote came about due to the things that I had experienced in my friendship with her.
As it is her birthday this week I felt that to honor her memory this year I would share one of the poems I created. The following Poem is in memory of J.N. K.:
I Did Not Know How to Tell You
I did not know how to tell you How it made me feel, So I just did what had kept me safe And hid from all the pain.
I could not see how this would hurt you Or take us on different paths, All I understood was the pain it had caused, So I hid from all the pain.
The years went by and by. I tried to see you when I was close by. Things never seemed to be the same, So I hid from all the pain.
I never could forget the friendship That we had. I still could not tell you The reason it was not the same So I still hid from all the pain.
It never occurred to me That you probably felt some pain. I never thought it had hurt you. So I hid from all the pain.
Life could never be how it was, No matter how much I tried. You never told me if I hurt you. So maybe you hid from all the pain.
I can never tell you now all the things I wished to fix. I want to take away, All the pain that did exist. And so I have to deal with all the pain. ~Dixie
